As well as taking anti-depressants, I also have been seeing a counsellor. My first appointment was all about what brought me to her door in the first place. At the beginning of the second appointment I was pretty agitated and I said that I thought she was going to tell me that wasn’t as good a daughter to my father as I am to my mother. We skimmed over my issues because she wanted information about my background and I went into detail about my childhood. So far so good. Nothing particularly controversial. After both appointments I was reasonably relaxed.
The nice thing about the second appointment was that afterwards I remembered my parents are two different people and of course our relationships would differ. Although we didn’t go into the reasons why I’m feeling so insecure, I felt happier.
The third appointment started to deal with the meat of the matter. I hope you can respect me when I say it was a good appointment and we can leave it at that. There are some things I cannot tell you.
I’m working hard to feel better.