Last night’s dream: I was in Morocco on a business/wedding trip. The hotel I was in was lovely and warm but we didn’t go outside. The floors were white marble. The walls were a terra cotta colour. There were diaphanous fabrics swinging gently in the doorways. My skin was getting a healthy glow. Everyone was wearing sumptuous colours, small sandals and everything seemed so much brighter than a winter’s day in England ! I don’t think I met the bride but I was given a number of etiquette lessons in a Muslim country. For example, when I first meet a Muslim man, I need to bow to the floor and only look at his shoes. I almost got into serious trouble for looking at someone’s bottom when they bent over! I seemed to be organising a number of details for the wedding but it didn’t seem taxing.
You can imagine that waking up in England was a slight disappointment after that dream!
I went to the dentist first thing this morning. It was even closer than I thought it was and I drove there in under 3 minutes. So I arrived and curled up with Harry Potter on my lap to await my appointment. Although I was meant to see someone else, a very nice Irishman took me through and looked at my teeth. He said that I was so good at looking after them that he wouldn’t recommend a hygienist. “If only all my patients were this good at looking after their teeth,” he said in his lovely Irish accent. Which reminds me, Helios, if you’re reading this, you need to start flossing as often as I do – no excuses! Luckily my voice held out for almost the duration of the appointment so I didn’t have to start holding up cards that say “I am not antisocial. I have laryngitis and am trying not to speak. Thank you for your patience.” The best part was, because it’s NHS subsidised, my appointment only cost £16.50 including x-rays (as opposed to £65 for a check up with X-rays at my old private practice dentist)! I have to say the other reason I’m delighted is that he didn’t try to sell me tooth-whitening. I don’t mind going somewhere and having necessary work done but when your dentist starts going on and on about things I don’t want or need, I get a bit cross.
When I got to work I didn’t have much in my in tray so I bought the Eurostar tickets to go to France for my 40thbirthday. When you buy in advance you don’t pay an arm and a leg (£119 each isn’t bad!) and you also get your choice of seat on the train. I’ve put us at a table for both journeys so we can listen to an audio book together or read a paper in comfort. Now I’m looking at presents for The Boy and Euros for us. I’ll probably get 2-3 books that are good for a 7-8 year old. His mum told me that she has a hard time finding things to read in English and I thought he may have the same problem.
The Boy speaks both English and French fluently thanks to his parents – his dad is American and his mum is French. They both take great pains to speak both languages around The Boy and, when he was young, the difference was “Mummy’s words” and “Daddy’s words” not “French” and “English”. Years ago, when we first met him, he only spoke in English to me because he heard my American accent but only spoke to Helios in French because he didn’t recognise Helios’s accent and thought “He must be use Mum’s words.” Bless him. He was only two so no matter how many times we tried to explain that Helios didn’t use Mummy’s words, it didn’t quite sink in. Luckily Helios has the patience of a saint when it comes to Little ones. I think they enjoyed each other’s company despite the lack of actual communication! The other funny thing that happened once while we were there (I can’t think it was that first visit so it must have been the second time) was The Boy came up and stroked Helios’s beard. I was a little funny about it saying “That’s attached! That hair is attached!” but The Boy wasn’t pulling Helios’s hair – he was stroking it. Helios said that he expected The Boy hadn’t seen a beard in the flesh before and wanted to know what it felt like.
Helios had been listening to (bad) dance music and was Dad Dancing around the flat last night. He wasn’t impressed when I poked fun at him. He said “I am a dad!” It’s at times like that that I wish I’d met him when we were younger. Being childless myself makes me feel as though I slept a decade and when I awoke, all my friends had kids and I was left saying “What’d I miss?” Not only am I still in shock with the fact that my friends have kids (Who’s that again?), but I’ve got a strange drowsy feeling when they talk about their kids too. I understand what they say about how kids can be like this or that but I don’t know what living with it is like. Having said that, I don’t want the step-kids to think that I don’t adore them because I do cherish them – but there are times when I wish I’d have had kids with Helios. I’m sure there are plenty of people out there who would say that I still have time but I don’t want babies of my own. I don’t have the patience for raising children now.
You know, I have more on this post but don’t want to publish it. I may or may not in due course so I’ll sign off for now.