I’ve had a number of interviews recently – even one second interview – but no success!
I really fancied the most recent one too. It was for a shipping company in just the best part of town. I wouldn’t have been able to walk but travel wasn’t a big issue. The people seemed very nice and they were confident that I could do the job. The position was for an Office Manager and I felt I could do it with no problems. They went with the other person because she had experience in the shipping industry. (!)
I am, once again, sitting on the couch watching films that I’ve seen a hundred times… To say that I’m down is an understatement. But, I’m a fighter. I finally went back to the doctor a couple of days ago for a refill of my Prozac prescription and he’s given me something else to help me sleep that works well with Prozac. Thank God! I have been having so much trouble falling asleep. It has worked reasonably well but last night was difficult again. I kept thinking about that witch where I used to work. I also wondered what else I have to do to get a job…
Yes, I have been moping around the flat. But no more!
On a brighter note, now that I went to the doctor I now seem to have more energy. I’ve actually cleaned the flat for the first time in ages. I have made lentil lasagne and chilli con veggie – so I’ve been enjoying my time in the kitchen. I’m still managing to eat – which is a good sign. I’ve even spent an hour ironing today! I told the doctor that perhaps my sleeplessness may be due to my PCOS but it’s hard to tell since I’m so anxious all the time.
All the plans I had for possibly writing as well as working have gone by the wayside. I just haven’t had the energy over the past few weeks. I make myself feel guilty because I’m not doing enough. As always Helios is very supportive. He says that something good will come along soon. Of course, now that I’m finally sleeping, I have a bit more energy and a bit more – well I’m not sure what the word is but I have a bit more – is it confidence?
I am extremely lucky though. I keep counting my blessings: I have a great flat in a wonderful country. I live with the love of my life. I still have enough money in my savings account and am making a little money here and there by temping. At least I’m getting interviews! I’m not entirely unemployable.
In other news, I’ve had another period. The first couple of days were hard but I managed to cope with just some paracetamol (acetaminophen for you Americans) which is still quite unusual for me. I can’t say that I’m enjoying the experience but it’s not agony and for that I’m grateful! OK I know that the symptoms will get bad again soon enough but for the moment I’m waiting for my body to get accustomed to the new cycle.
Speaking of Endometriosis and a job hunt: I can’t help but wonder if I’m better off just temping – I feel a lot more relaxed and not as tired but I can’t help second guessing if I’m good enough and if I should mention my endometriosis at interview. So far I’ve not been mentioning it at all – especially since I’m only due six periods a year instead of 12 – but the whole issue has affected my self-confidence. I can’t help it.
I suppose its little surprise that my confidence has taken a bit of a knock. I do hope that the job I go to will help that!