I’m in two minds about what happened today.
Yes, I’m happy that I’ve got something else done. Yes, I’m happy that I’ll get a little help – which means that I won’t be going through my savings as quickly as before. It wasn’t a humiliating process.
Having said that, I found it also to be difficult to admit defeat and ask for help. Asking for help isn’t the sort of thing I do easily and now I feel deflated.
Luckily I have other things to concentrate on… For example, life with Helios just goes from strength to strength. I was reminded of this when I ran into a friend of mine that I’ve not seen in a number of years. She asked me how married life was treating me and I always smile when I think of him. Yes. Life at home is just great. Sure I have other frustrations but it’s easier to focus on the positive when I’ve got such a happy home life.
We’re coming to the end of the English Football (Soccer to you Americans) season and his favourite team is doing well this year. He and I are going to listen to another game tonight. I know a lot of women don’t really care for sports but I grew up in a US University town – and I watched a lot of sports. I grew to love American Football and Basketball. I never much cared for professional sports but would go out of my way to watch the local university games on the TV.
For years I used to say that I wanted to support an English Football team but Ramman never watched sports so I supported the national team. When my mom and sister came to visit in 1996 we watched a couple of games in the Euro 96 tournament. I really enjoyed it. Now I feel like I’m my old self again, following a team and hoping for a good result…
But I digress. I’ll try not to feel a failure for asking for help and concentrate on the positive.